So, George came and moved in last night. He's settling in nicely and he's such a lovebug. He's actually sitting in my lap as I write this, blocking the screen. He's a little spooked by the noises outside and of people coming and going. I think he thinks I'm leaving whenever he hears the outside door closed, but he's starting to get used to it. He's just a big baby, a very, very rugged baby that is. He likes laying on one of my totes under my bed, I think he thinks it's his cave and also has found he can watch the pigeons out my back window. He loves that, haha. I'll post some pics when I get batteries for my digital.
I am adopting a cat named George! He's black and white and was abandoned and left to fend for himself for a few years until and an organization called Friends of Feral Cats found him. Here's a link to their website www.feralfelines.net. I'm big on the adoption thing right now especially with times as hard as they are. Kittens have a much better chance of being adopted than an older cat. Why I don't really know because despite them being cute, they aren't litter trained and haven't learned manners yet, nor are they neutered. Anyway, George is a cutie, his foster mom and dad are coming Wednesday night to check out my place and if all goes well George is moving in! I'm also taking my parents cat Willow and am hoping they'll get along alright. I'm sure they'll settle in fine though.
A piece from the Facebook group started by the owners of the horses who died in the fire on Dec. 10, 2008.
In memory of the 8 horses that were tragically lost to a barn fire on December 10, 2008 at Spruce Hill Farm in Windham, Maine.
The horses were not only show horses; they were family and will be greatly missed. They won't be remembered for their show records but for the smiles they brought to everyone's faces. No one ever thinks that anything like this will happen to them. It is an utter tragedy. As all of you know these horses were very well loved and taken care of. Sometimes there are no answers as to "why this happens to good people".
Rest In Peace our beloved horses & may you enjoy the greener pastures in which you are now running.
Lil' of Buckskin (Monty) owned by Elizabeth Cole The Whole Nine Yards (Ripley) owned by Taylor Duncanson The Moxie Man (Lucky) owned by Brittany and Jenna Costa A Romantic Cowboy (Cowboy) owned by Julia Jordan and Abigail Smith The Scottish Verse (Scotty) owned by Haley Jordan MWS Flash Mea Double (Sandy) owned by Marti Beaulieu Zipped Outa Town (Doc) owned by Caitlin Sarah Putnam Ayesgarth Zeus (Zeus) owned by Amy & Dana Sterling
We will be having a "Celebration of Their Lives" on Sunday Dec 14th at 1pm for anyone that would like to join us. Bring pictures to add to our memory boards and any of your fond memories to share. The celebration will be at Crystal Stover's, 508 Gray Road, Windham ME 04062.
Donations for the Spruce Hill Farm Fund can be sent in care of Crystal Stover at the address above. Amy and the horse owners have lost all their tack and equipment from everyday manure forks and lead ropes to blankets and show saddles so any amount would be gratefully appreciated.
I step out into the rain and let the door swing shut behind me. As I walked home I let my mind wander back to the past. It was hard to believe that Charlie and I had once been best friends. We’d met in basic training and had gone to Vietnam together. We were two of the four surviving members of our platoon who made it home. After our tour was done I’d bounced around the country for a while before following Charlie back to his hometown of Kalispell, Montana and built a house for myself. We’d bought the bar together and through a few other good investments I’d made a name for myself. Around Christmas time his sister returned home from college back east and Charlie introduced us. From the moment I first saw her I knew she was perfect. Charlie and Carolyn’s mother’s parents had been full blooded Blackfeet. Carolyn had inherited their dark hair, eyes, and golden skin. She was her parents pride and joy. She was smart, top of her class at Rutgers, and her brother and I would sometimes stand in awe at little things she’d say that we’d have never thought of. Carolyn was also the strongest woman I’d ever met. She’d raised a daughter on her own, while she went to school. Like I said she was perfect in every way. We were married in the summer after her graduation, and started to build our life together with Dana who had just turned five. I raised her as my own and in the years to come Carolyn and I had two more daughters together, Jackie and Suzanne.
When Monday night rolled around I was back at the watering hole. On Sundays the place was closed so come Monday the place was usually packed with locals thirsty for a taste of liquor. I’d sold my share of the bar to Charlie years before but I never could help but to come in and see how business was doing a few times a week. I strolled in at around nine o’clock, sat down at my spot at the bar, and waited for Charlie to come over. The bar was indeed busy and it was a few minutes before he could get to me. “What can get for you?” “Michelob.” “Draft or bottle?” “Bottle.” He handed me the bottle and tried to walk away but I stopped him. “Hey Charlie, how are the girls doing?” “They’re fine.” “Fine doesn’t tell me how they’re handling life without a man in their lives.” He frowned a little and I could tell there was something he wanted to tell me. “Alright, what’s going on?” “There isn’t anything going on.” “Yes, there is, you always get that pinched look between your eyes when you’re hiding something from.” “No, I don’t.” “Yeah you do, you remember that time in Da Nang don’t you?” “Alright fine, look, Junior was right, Carolyn is seeing someone.” “Who?” Even to my ears my voice sounded a little odd, like someone had me by the throat and I was still trying to talk. “You don’t know him. He’s from Browning.” “Who?” I repeated, though I could already tell what was coming next. “Dana’s father, but look he’s great for the girls. They love him.” “They’re my kids.” Damn right they were my kids, I thought. Nobody was taking them from me and Caroline was my wife. Mine. I raised Dana as my own and never treated her differently then the other two. No, I would never allow them to be taken for me. “Well, you really fucked that relationship up when they watched you smack their mom around for years. Now you’re just going to have to accept Carolyn’s choices if you want any hope in building that relationship.” “Where the hell did the bastard come from anyway?” “I guess he’s been serving in the Marines overseas for years and thought Carolyn wasn’t interested in anything more then quick affair. He didn’t know about Dana.” “So why come to Montana of all places.” He got that squinty look between his eyes again. “We grew up together.”
Sitting on a beach somewhere With Merle Haggard and Willy Nelson Sand between our toes and Hair in our eyes from hurricane breezes Sipping on coconut rum We pretend we’re pirates under the sun
Living on dreams, reminiscing other times Pretending that legends never die Newman and Redford ride into the picture Six guns blazing, horses at full gallop We trade in our rum for whisky and Our surf boards for saddles We ride the western wind Like we rode the southern squalls
We trade in the guns and glory All for a peacefuller scene Up in a tree with a girl A garden party below us And a handsome man with pockets full Of champagne, we can't remember his name Because there is Bogart, the dark and quiet type Setting our feminine hearts to pounding We'd follow him Casablanca, we'd follow him To the ends of the earth
Until we find ourselves back on our beach When the radio switches from Nelson to McGraw And we realize that legends never do die They live on in the generations that come after The pelvic thrusts and the cool badboy smiles Prestley and Dean survive in the hips of our modern man But they started it and it will forever be remembered That some things are ageless and will live on eternally.
Today has been a quite horrible day. Mornings are never a good part of the day anyway, but when you are awoken as I was things go from bad to worse. First off I'm sick...I knew I was coming down with something yesterday and today I woke up with a sore throat. Second, how I was awoken...my phone rang it was my mum...a good thing usually...at 8:30am a bad thing...I knew it was bad news. The barn where I had once boarded my horse had burnt down. Eight horses were lost, most of whom I'd grown up around. The imagination I've been blessed with is a curse today because I can hear them screaming and yes, horses scream or rather it's a high pitched whinny. I also have an image of a certain draft horse and another quarter horse and now another and another trying to get out of their stalls and slowly burning to death. I'm going with the hopes that the smoke got to them first, but it was a barn with hay and wood so it went up fast. God!!!!! I just need to get the images out of my head and hopefully writing of them will get them partially out...I don't think they will simply go away. I know four of the horses that were probably in there.
First there was Zeus a Belgian Draft who once was a carriage horse up at the Mount Washington Hotel. Over 18 Hands tall, creamy tan and white with adorably long lashes. One of his feet were the size of my head, he was a big boy, but incredibly gentle. He didn't care for my little Arab...I don't know if it was his black coloring or his size, but I can remember falling off once on a trail ride because Zeus chased after my horse.
Then there is Cowboy, a big baby to the end. He was a chestnut color with a big old white stripe down his forehead. He was a goof ball, always injuring himself and getting stitches on his nose or bombing through a fence because he was jealous the other horses were being ridden and not him. Or I remember a time he locked me in a barn...that was a trip, lol. My friend and I were in there for a half-hour. He was a beautiful animal...and all decked out for shows he was a prime piece.
Then there was Miss Lucy...I'm not sure if she was in the fire or not to be honest, but I'm thinking she probably was. She was a baby when we first met, but grew up as all babies do. She was a buckskin quarter horse just like her mum. Before she learned her manners she was quite the handful. I was taking care of the barn or maybe just helping Amy out one day and I was leading Lucy into the barn for her dinner. She had this trick where she'd put her head down like she was going to grab some grass and then snap up and try to take the lead from your hands. The smart person would either be ready for this or let go...but not me, she must have dragged me for 15 ft. before I let go. She grew into a tall gorgeous girl though.
Then there was the handsome bay Scotty...another one I'm not positive was in the barn fire, but again most likely. He was another gentle giant. A Quarter horse so not as big as Zeus of course, but still a big boy like Cowboy. And it really was his gentle nature I remember the most. You could see it in his eyes. He was gentle with humans, but agressive in the pasture, I think he took more than a few nips out of my Blackstar's rump to show who's boss, but that's the way of all animals I think even humans we just use words.
These horses will all be remembered...they touched many lives...were part of many families...were very much loved. It's funny how these creatures who normally live only 25-30 years normally and in this case much shorter than that touch our hearts. It seems to rip it out when they pass away. I'm sure Amy and Dana and the girls are heartbroken, I think they'd sooner have had an arm cut off then lose those animals. I'd be willing to give up one of mine to bring them back and they aren't even my horses. Fire is such a violent creature in itself and animals so helpless at times like babies. I don't really know how to end this blog....I have a feeling that I'm going to have another cry over this when this is through. I'm not a crier normally, but I sobbed. Loss of ones love ones in such a manner is horrible. I'm quite simply...Devastated.
Turners never did know when to mind their own business. No matter how many times Old Nate got his lip fattened for running off at the mouth he never learned and he passed on his wagging tongue to his son Junior. The way I remember it was Saturday night, we were all sitting in our usually places at the bar, as we had been doing for the last twenty or so years, and Junior comes running in practically foaming at mouth with some piece of gossip he must have heard. He immediately hurried towards me and I looked at my friends and rolled my eyes. “Ned you ain’t going to believe it when I tell you who I just saw over in Browning.” I rolled my eyes again and grinned at my buddies, “No, Junior I guess I probably will not believe whatever it is you have to say to me.” He scowled at me, “You won’t be grinning when I tell you.” “Well, why don’t you tell me then?” “I saw Carolyn!” I could feel my smile freeze on my face and hear my friends fidget behind me. Junior didn’t notice and kept chattering. “That’s not all Ned! She was at the Legion with that guy who just took over the place, and they were looking really cozy if you know what I mean.” He winks at me and the next thing I know he’s lying on the floor and clutching his bleeding nose. “That is my wife you are talking about,” I snarl at him. “Not for much longer is the way she tells it,” he sneers at me as he picks himself off the floor, “She left you and no matter how long you wait she isn’t going to come crawling back the way you think she is. I was just doing you a favor man, telling you where your woman was, thinking you’d like to know, but see if I ever tell you anything ever again.” The door slams shut behind him as he walks out and I turn and look at my friends. I try to act like there isn’t anything wrong by grinning. They smile and nod at me and everyone sits back down. The noise level slowly goes up again and people return to the pool tables. “Hey Charlie,” I say to the bartender, “Why don’t you bring us another round?” “I think maybe you had enough for tonight, Ned,” he says quietly. “Can’t ever have enough can you boys?” I say look around me to my friends for agreement. Theo, sitting to my right, rubs the back of his neck and stares at the scarred bar top avoiding my eyes. I look over at Larry and Paul sitting to my left. They are frowning slightly. “Sometimes you can have enough,” says Charlie staring directly into my face. “Well, fine. I guess I’ll just go home then.” “It’s raining Ned have Theo drive you,” says Charlie. “I can walk.” “When are you getting your license back Ned?” asks Charlie before Theo can move. “I don’t know whenever the judge tells me I can drive.” “He is not going to give a drunk back his license,” says Charlie. “And I thought you were my friend, but there you go calling me a drunk just like Caro. I guess with a friend like you I don’t need enemies.” “Why would I be friends with the man who beat up my sister?” sneers Charlie before dismissing me by grabbing a dish rag to wipe down the counter. “Ned you know we only want to help,” mutters Theo. “Yeah, yeah, I could really use some more of your kind of help,” I say as I walk towards the door and push it open. Something stops me and I turn and look at them and say quietly, “You know she’ll come back to me. She always does.” Charlie freezes for a moment his hands on the bar top. “I know,” he says quietly.
So I thought it was about time I actually added to the blog here's a poem I did last spring, pick at it please and enjoy...
Where You Wait for Me On a rock, on a beach, in the middle of nowhere My journey ends here, where the land meets the sea. I’ll ride into the sunset on the back of the sea Breathing in foam, tides eroding my fingers and toes It seeps into my bones, these currents and sands.
Sinking into the salt and water I become an urchin, Wishing for a place I could cling to I just wish I could have clung to you. Love and the sea are sisters, both endless They are fickle creatures, they can carry or deceive. Lovers are just ripples on the surface of their vastness.
That vast sea carries me, sometimes near and sometimes far away Someday it will carry me back where you are. My journey ends here, on this rock by the sea On a beach far from somewhere where perhaps you wait for me.
And you could wait, let me drift for a bit In the waters of Egypt, India, and Cuba. These warm waters will cool and I will grow lonely, Slowly I’ll pick my legs from the corals, Where I was stuck for a bit like a ship in the reefs I’ll let go of some dreams, and grow a few others.
As long as, of course, as you’ll wait for me On my rock, on my beach, my love, by the sea, Which may not be as far gone as I once thought it to be.
The gloaming is the time when day meets night and it's not quite either. It's a transitioning point, the beginning, and the end to the day and in this circumstance life. This blog is meant to be a place for me to tell of my adventures, share some of my short stories and other creative pieces, and hopefully give some enjoyment to readers. The writing is meant to be quirky, humorous, serious, or perhaps will just be controlled by whatever mood I'm in while writing. I love criticism. There is no way to be a better writer without it and that is what I am so critique away.
I love soup, reading, chocolate, animals, writing, and surfing the internet for hours...I'm happiest when I'm left to do those things. I like my solitude, but also love going out with friends. I love shopping for shoes and cooking supplies and I could grocery shop for hours.